I'm (we're) back!

It's been a whole year since I last posted. Instagram has been my thing lately, and it was just easier to post quick recaps of our day than make posts. BUT, in that time I'd been feeling a bit lost and have been trying to find my voice again, so I thought I'd start it back up. I think the blog, while staying mostly our family blog, will eventually become a bit more of my journal. At least that's the plan, anyway.

Starting in the new year I've been thinking about what to do, how to stretch myself, what talents I have, what talents I should have, what talents I have or could develop to bless my family, what talents I have or could develop to monetarily bless my family...and I've been coming up short.


I've been feeling really good about who I follow on Instagram lately. Social media can be a force for good or a force for distraction and self-loathing, and lately I've tried to clean up who I follow. I follow women who are inspirational to me. Who are real. Who are helpful for me right now. It can change month-to-month, but a few women have been especially helpful to me as I've prepared to give birth, as I have been recovering and finding my voice again (I know, I never really lost it, but I feel like I was wondering for a bit last year...).

Alison from @thealisonshow said something on Instagram recently that just CLICKED:

thealisonshowFor a really long time, like forever 😂, I was so obsessed with the idea of "WHAT AM I DOING?!" Or "What should I be doing?!" Or "what's the best thing to do?!" That it made me nuts! Scroll back and read like years of IG and blog posts if you want. 💁 But can I just say it's SO FREAKING FREEING when you realize ⭐️ it doesn't matter WHAT you're doing, nearly as much as it matters HOW you're doing it. ⭐️ Our old mailman of 7 years (from before we moved into our new house) stumbled into my office yesterday because he was filling in for a coworker and ended up being on my office mail route. I was (and still am) so obsessed with him because every day he delivered our mail with so much love and light and awesomeness, that he'd make my day better EVERY time I saw him. And seeing him yesterday made my day better yet again. The way he delivers mail makes the world a better place because of HOW he does it. 💌 So I just share in case like I was for years you're feeling overwhelmed with the "WHAT AM I DOING?!" conundrum. And I'll even give you an answer: as long as you're doing your best at something, and you're moving from love and not fear...IT DOESN'T really matter. Or it doesn't matter nearly as much as you think it does. 😘 Trust me. 

And then the day after I read her post I read an article from the Ensign about living the good life, about putting the gospel of Jesus Christ above my worldly aspirations. About living a life of gratitude. About putting the virtues I would want said at my funeral above the virtues needed for a good resume.

And THEN, I remembered another instagrammer (ok, she's got a blog, but Instagrammer is a pretty fun name to say),  @simplysadiejane, mentioning that she meditates every morning, she loves who she is and her journey, and that it only makes sense that she was blessed with an opportunity because of that.

All that to say, go check out these women, read that article and stay tuned. I think I've figured out that by staying true to who I am, writing down my thoughts, what I do with my family, things that I'm learning, it will all fall into place, little by little. I'll write up Theodore's birth story soon and can't wait to share it, as well as some of my favorite pictures of his short 9 weeks here so far.


November, according to my phone.

Well, not all of these are from my phone. November, according to iphoto is more accurate... In November we took some beautiful family photos in Central Park, thanks to Laura Farr. And then Ken, Ryan's dad, came to the city for Thanksgiving and although there aren't too many pictures, we had so much fun with him going around the city adventuring, and the boys absolutely loved having a new playmate in the morning right when they woke up. We had a combined Thanksgiving this year, with the Kjar's hosting this time and dessert/pies at our house afterward. They invited us and the Davis' (Paola and Mark and their two year old, Johnny) and it's always fun to have a big, friend/family party, similar to the gatherings of my childhood. There aren't a lot of photos from November this year. I must have had too much fun enjoying the jacket weather and all that sun. 

Num Pang! 

The Intrepid--little boy/airplane heaven.

The boys started saying personal prayers before bed and it's just so sweet hearing their voices and allowing them to show their gratitude to their Heavenly Father. 


...in October.

The best part about October was going to our friends' home in PA. It was the perfect small town getaway weekend for Columbus day and we got some cute fall photos out of it, too. Playing in a backyard, picking pumpkins, apple cider doughnuts and car rides, s'mores in their fire pit, the boys (and Ryan and I) were in heaven. // And doesn't that picture of Ava and Henry make you swoon?!

Other highlights from October include finding this cute NY Giants beanie (we've already lost it, RIP and thank goodness for thrift store finds and cheap kids' hats), our first cold day of "winter" and Halloween, where, due to a kitchen fire alarm going off during our ward's party, the boys got to meet real firemen while in their firemen costumes. They were super friendly and obviously the parents thought it was much cooler than the boys. :)